Blake Fielder Civil Admits He Introduced Amy to Crack and Heroin
Amy Winehouse’s husband says he wants out of their marriage – for her sake.
“The first time Amy took crack she asked me, ‘Can I try a bit of that’,” he said. “Crack is the nastiest drug. It makes you paranoid, unreasonable, edgy and totally suspicious of everyone. And you can get hooked on it straight away.
But I was weak and an addict and I let Amy take some. I didn’t stop it from happening. For that I take full responsibility. It became something we did as well as heroin. And then our lives fell apart.”
On Amy’s drug induced seizure,
“I was there when Amy suffered her first seizure. I still break down thinking about it. We had been taking drugs all day long — heroin and crack. We started early and finished late. We didn’t really think to stop. We both pushed things too much.
I wanted to just disappear on drugs and not remember a thing. And while I was getting out of my head, I wasn’t thinking that I was taking somebody with me.
On being locked up,
“I just couldn’t believe that we were going to be torn apart. I felt inadequate. I felt unworthy of Amy. I felt that she should be with some other pop star or film star.
On being a crackhead,
There are still reasons that Amy and I don’t like to be sober and if I go back to her I am basically saying, ‘It’s all right to kill yourself Amy’. Even if I was strong enough to resist drugs — and I’m not — it’s a ticking timebomb. I accept that there is every horrible, horrible chance that I could be tempted to take drugs again if I went back to Amy.
Because of drugs we can’t have a normal life together. That’s why I have to let her go.”
I never thought I’d say it, but I respect Blake. Wino and Blake were the UK’s version of Whitney and Bobby, but it looks like Blake is maturing and taking responsibility for his screw-ups.
